FABULOUS

This is what I look like now.

How is it possible that I STILL have love-handles????

What I look like...

...when I am hungry but unable to eat:


My family went down to Oceanside for my grandpa's birthday today. He turned 78. Woo old!

We went Black Angus. Now, as many of you know, I LOVE food. Especially mass quantities of it. The statement holds even more truth when the food is unhealthy.

EVERYTHING on that menu looked fan-fucking-tastic. My tears and drool mixed together in a puddle on the table as I read over all of the meals that I couldn't even try to eat. I pathetically whimpered and my parents whimpered in sympathy. Salads, appetizers, steaks, chicken, desserts!! Holy shit, I just wanted to inhale everything!

I ordered mashed potatoes.

I only ate about 1/3 of them.

By the end of the night, the pain from swallowing migrated from my throat to my ears. Talk about aggravating.

I just want to eat. :(

EDIT: Damn, my hands are HUGE!!! :P

I'm one stomach flu away from my ideal weight

So a lot of people have been joking about wishing they could have a tonsillectomy to help them lose weight.

I weighed myself this morning: 151.5 pounds...

About a year and a half ago, I weighed 200 pounds. I have lost a quarter of my body weight! That's a bit ridiculous. I've only lost about 10-15 pounds with the tonsillectomy, but still.

I want to EAT so badly! I have compiled a list of foods, broken down by meal type, that I will be eating once I can eat again. And let me tell you, it is about as disgusting and unhealthy as humanly possible. The beauty of it all is that I don't care! Ha ha ha ha ha ha

Oh yeah, I lost my wits about 3 days ago. Just so you know. :)

I would take a picture and show you what my body looks like right now, but I can't imagine any of you want to see that. Amanda and Nikki, you haven't seen me in a while, so I imagine you would both be quite shocked at how skinny I am.

Inspiration

Why am I so bad at follow-through?

I don't know if I'm just lazy or apathetic, but I can never seem to consistently do anything.

Well, that's not entirely true. I do manage to eat all the time. Now THAT I am good at!

I'm referring, of course, to this blog. Granted, if I had more exciting things to write about, I imagine that I would. Although, when I really think about it, there have been plenty of interesting occurrences this year. Instead of stopping to write them down (and purge on some level), I just sit on them.

For instance, I could write an entry about my tonsillectomy experience. At the least, it would pass the time (as I am now 6 days into the recovery and pretty sure that I've lost my mind). But no, I'm not in the mood.

Give me a few minutes, I'm going to go into the backyard and give myself a swift kick to the ass. Maybe that will wake me up!

I really can kick myself in the ass. I can also kick myself in the head. I'll show you sometime. ;-)